I have this feeling that I am missing something. It’s hovering there on the edge of my understanding. I can glimpse it out of the corner of my eye but when I turn my head to look fully at it – it slips away. It’s not a new thing, it’s a thing I started brushing up against it when I wrote this.
Actually, I am coming to the conclusion that I am never going to be able to see it properly because it’s the pursuit of a lifetime.
To be filled with the fullness of God…
How could I even imagine that is something I can look at and see and understand?
14 For this reason [grasping the greatness of this plan by which Jews and Gentiles are joined together in Christ] I bow my knees [in reverence] before the Father [of our Lord Jesus Christ], 15 from whom every family in heaven and on earth [a]derives its name [God—the first and ultimate Father]. 16 May He grant you out of the riches of His glory, to be strengthened and spiritually energized with power through His Spirit in your inner self, [indwelling your innermost being and personality], 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through your faith. And may you, having been [deeply] rooted and [securely] grounded in love, 18 be fully capable of comprehending with all the saints (God’s people) the width and length and height and depth of His love [fully experiencing that amazing, endless love]; 19 and [that you may come] to know [practically, through personal experience] the love of Christ which far surpasses [mere] knowledge [without experience], that you may be filled up [throughout your being] to all the fullness of God [so that you may have the richest experience of God’s presence in your lives, completely filled and flooded with God Himself].
That last thought…
so that you may have the richest experience of God’s presence in your lives, completely filled and flooded with God Himself
What a thought! What a prayer! Is it really any wonder I can’t grasp it properly?
The Living Bible actually catches my thought perfectly
18-19 and may you be able to feel and understand, as all God’s children should, how long, how wide, how deep, and how high his love really is; and to experience this love for yourselves, though it is so great that you will never see the end of it or fully know or understand it. And so at last you will be filled up with God himself.
What a wonderful way to live life – constantly trying to see the reality of how deep, wide, high and long His love for me is. Constantly experiencing and sharing that love as my life becomes more and more rooted and grounded in it and on it. Because as God shares His astounding, awesome love with me so I have to share it in turn. That fullness isn’t to be bottled up. It’s to be shed abroad because the filling never ends. It is infinite and I am finite so it really needs to go somewhere and that means to those around me.
I’m going to keep pursuing that idea that seems to hover just out of sight, not because it teases me or taunts me but because the pursuit of it satisfies me in a way nothing else can and because that pursuit makes me a better, more loving, more godly person.