I’ve heard this song before, I heard it again yesterday and the lyrics always jump out at me. I’ve been singing it ever since.
He is jealous for me, loves like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions
Eclipsed by glory and I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me
And oh, how He loves us, oh
Oh, how He loves us, how He loves us all
He is jealous for me.
He is. Now I know jealousy is something we discourage but it’s actually not the deadly sin. Envy is that sin – envy is wanting something that is not ours. Jealousy is being possessive of something that is ours. He is jealous for me, about me. He wants my love, my affection, my devotion and is jealous when I focus those things on others when I take away what is His by right.
I was reading a novel where a child wants to commit her life to God. ” I keep giving myself to Him but then I borrow myself back. I want to give all of me to Him.” Isn’t that the way? I borrow myself back – sadly I don’t remember I am borrowed and use myself as I see fit rather than as the possession of someone else.
Reading Psalm 1, I found a verse that will help me remember I am not my own, that I have been bought and paid for by the greatest exchange in History.
For you, the Eternal’s Word is your happiness.
It is your focus—from dusk to dawn.
Time for me to be jealous too – my happiness is based on Him, on being with Him. I want to be possessive of that time, not distracted, not half-hearted but aware it is everything, that everything comes from it.
You, Eternal One, are my sustenance and my life-giving cup.
In that cup, You hold my future and my eternal riches.
Let’s drink deeply of that cup today, tomorrow and forever.